Priority Adjustment

I'm a little bit sad this morning.

I woke up feeling chipper and motivated; ready for a fresh new day. Driven by the momentum created in yesterday's productivity I was ready to take on this day with equal amounts of determination to check off still more long-ignored tasks on my to-do list.

Then it hit me; the dramatic, negative end to my day with Katherine and the non-dramatic, uninvolved end to my day with Patrick. The details are unimportant, but I fear that my response this morning as I got ready for this day is telling and it saddens me.

Why is it that as I woke this morning and thought about this day my mind turned toward tasks and objectives? Why not a sad recollection of how yesterday ended with my kids and a resolution to not let this day end the same way? Why am I driven by the tasks of the day rather than the relationships of my life.

I am, once again, reminded of something we often talk about in MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers); the tasks will always be there, but these small children will not. Be present while they are.

I think I'm going to go join my kids playing video games.